Saturday, May 21, 2016 @ 8:34 AM
“I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink, but now I'm insecure and I care what people think.” — stressed out
hi y'all, assalamualaikum! hm, dh malam2 ni rasa nak post something lah pulak sbb who knows ada orang baca last post aku pasal temuduga dekat upsi that turned out totally sucks. long short story, yes. aku tak dapat. I failed. I disappointed everyone. I know. I always knew that. but what can I do when that's the only thing I'm good at.
so yeah, the neighbourhood knew about the interview, and while waiting for the result to came out, some of them bad-mouthed me; says that I'd be sucked so bad. I won't make it. and in the meantime, aku buat donno ja. like wHO THE FUCK TELL SOMEONE ELSE'S DAUGHTER THAT SHE'D FUCKED SO BAD AND WILL ENDED UP FAIL? WHO? YOU TELL ME?!
hm, I was furious obviously at first. who wouldn't? just because that aunt's children pandai2, sedap mulut dia ja nak mengata aku. honestly, even makcik aku, my blood, talk shit about me. I'm so done with everyone. can't they mind their own fucking stupid businesses or what?
my parents didn't stand up for me for things they've said to me and I'm grateful for that because I really don't want to create scenes over stupid things that would lead to another stupid things.
aku tak dapat offer lain, aku tak dapat upu. aku tak marah. aku cuma marah dekat orang sekeliling yg fikir they could do any better than me — as if they were the ones that gonna give me money in the future, as if they owned me causing them to bad pooping behind my back and stuffs. also, those rm16 that I've spent over that stupid upu pin numbers.
jadi, aku nak syorkanlah jalan Ari — my kinda friend, that he used to study in the engineering field. his result was quite ass bomb-ed but he didn't apply for any IPTA'S. kluar ja result, dalam bulan 4 dia dah blah ke penang. yang tu satu.
to those adik2 yang nak ambil sangat tesl @ english dkt ipta sbb ipts mahal, ni aku syorkan buat elok2 dalam subj eng, and math untuk lepas bgi dpt tempat dlm temudga dkt uitm/upsi. (yg lain pon penting but this is the syarat.) haha syarat, really. yea really. yg penting, syarat untuk nk isi upu ialah 5 kredit/C. ha pastu dh dapat TEMUDUGA TU WORK ON THAT AND MAKE SOME FRIENDS BECAUSE I DID, AND THEY ARE SO AWESOME. SO RAD. SO RUDE THAT I THINK WE'RE PERFECT. ahahahah k.
“Ala kak, saya tak lepas temuduga.”
“Saya nak jugak masuk situ kak!”
ha UNTUk hampa yg degil boleh pi bsn beli number under nma uni tu. contoh upsi, beli number pin upsi ha pastu nnt isi UNTUK second intake. “Rayuan mcm mana? Bukan ada ka?” ya kids, ade. tapi aku tak tahu how it works untuk courses yg ada temuduga ni.
“Ada jalan lain tak akak? EGEGGEHEH”
mestila ada. di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan — that jalan happens to be IPTS YAY AHAHAHAHHA. aku tahu a uni or two yg tawarkan kos english/tesl ni.
1. UNISEL — DIPLOMA & FOUNDATION. /tkda temuduga
2. MSU — DIPLOMA & FOUNDATION. /tkda temuduga
3. KUIS — DIPLOMA /dkt selangor/ ada temuduga
4. KUIPAS — DIPLOMA /dkt pahang/ tkda temuduga
ha mudah bukan? tapi psal foundation dkt msu tu aku tak sure sbb last aku try apply tahun lepas — bulan aku tak ambil spm lagi. so stupid, aren't I? haha. jadi klu hampa nak tau apa yg aku nk buat @ sambung, aku nk hbaq la ni. aku apply unisel instead of msu, and i got diploma for that but I've already asked to change. aku nak tukar ke asasi which is setahun tempoh pengajian without any loans except for scholarships. so difficult isn't it? I know. tapi takpe, untuk degree nnt aku nak mintak upsi jgk sbb nnt boleh bagi bitch slap bebanyak dekat batch98 yg lepas temuduga dgn aku haritu. and that was Syah and I's plan. HAHAH SO KIDS, TILL WE MEET AGAIN CIAO! XX
and yo grammar nazis, I can see you flipping over my rojak language and my horrible grammar. zzZzz
Labels: upu2016 Friday, April 22, 2016 @ 11:46 PM
hi ahahahahhahaha assalamualaikum! breh, dah lama sangat tak post something like *shrugs* ha, baca tak title tu? wakakaka aku pon tak expect weh nak dapat. dapat pergi interview je pon. ahahaha ok2, jom mula.
apala motif minah ni? *rolls eyes* motif dia sebab aku nak lah jugak cerita pengalaman pergi uni interview. klu sebelum ni pergi school interview je breh. + masa aku nak pergi haritu, biasalah, kita mesti Google dlu kan nak cari maklumat. malangnya, maklumat yang aku cari tu AMATLAH sedikit ye anak anak. yang keluar semua pasal, apa tu medsi? ha itula.
ok, mula2 sekali, aku check online lah kan sbb ada org inform dkt fb. aku pon check lah, tengok2 mAsyaAllah!! ahahaha tekejuz weehh brsyukur gila sebab ala, perak tu kira dekat dah ah dengan tempat aku. langkawi. y'all be like "apa minah ni langkawi dengan tanjung malim tu jauh doh, naik ferry lagi, drive lagi." ha, baru hang tau. HAHAHAHA tapi kira dekat dahla tu anak2 sekalian.
first day.
aku inc makpak aku semua sampai jetty dalam pukul berapa je, tapi yg pasti dalam pukul 11 tu kami dah bertolak dah ke tanjung malim.
long short story, kami dah sampai dekat upsi, tanjung malim. Yeay! hold up boy, jangan nak yeay sangat, rpanya itu kampus sultan abdul jalil, ayooooo. tempat interview aku dekat kampus sultan azlan shah. kami pon pusing lah, tanya pakcik dekat situ.
few minutes later, kami sampai ahahahaha yeay! bapak cantik weeeehhh. heart eyes memanjang aku masa round2 kampus tu. kami adala tanya guard dekat situ, ikut tempat yg kami kena pergi. like, first test would be here, and speaking test would be there. Ha
Dahtu kami pon pergila check in hotel. Ada ja hotel dekat situ, banyak la jugak tpi cina ke India aku taktau la.
second day.
finally, ahaha aku bangun pukul 6:30 pagi gitu ah. mandi, siap2 pastu solat apa semua. kami check out terus. sampai ja dekat kampus tu kan, ya ampun, ingatkan aku ja paling awal, tapi ada yang lagi awal. LOL. long short story, kami smua masuk la dewan tu first test (writing test). fuyoo sejuk gila doh dalam tu dengan budak lain penuh.
kitaorang kena duduk selang seli. faham? nak elakkan daripada tak selesa dan meniru apa semua tu lah kot. ada ah 3 orang yg jaga dlam tu. aku rsa pensyarah lah kot (meme lah, OBV kot). Akak (akak tokkau) tu bagi instructions ah tulis nama apa smua.
haaaa dan inilah yg dinantikan oleh semua orang *drum rolls* dia ada berapa section entah HAHAHA tapi soalan objektif ada 50, and then another section kita kena buat karangan. tak silap aku dia suruh buat around 250. tapi aku tngok budak lain buat banyak namatey. seram pulak aku hahaha but who cares? karangan tu saja 20 marks.
tajuk: money.
ha tajuk nampak senang an? tapi macam biasalah, tera nk boleh tulis pendahuluan tu ada 10 jam jk jk jk ahahah kita ada 2 jam ja ok. aku peqah otak sampai dh mcm sponge rasanya. tangan pon dh mcm nk terbelit pen tu pusing sini sana.
itu jela. yang ni best part. akak tu cakap siapa yg guna kertas lebih tapi tak stapler lagi angkat tangan. dengan bangganya aku yg tak mintak kertas lebih ni angkat tangan. pastu dh sedar, baru gedik dgn slow motion nya turun. budak lain yg perasan mst ingat aku ni bangang an. ahahah
*skip sampai part nk MASUK oral.*
kena masuk situ dalam pukul 2. aku dapat dekat fakulti apa ntah, yg pasti Blok 8 bilik 12, second floor. dah jumpa bilik 12, msuk ah kan pstu adess kena tunggu dekat waiting room pulak. nanti diaorang panggil ah ikut bilik and group kita. group mana yang nak habis cepat pi la dulu.
dalam satu jam lah jugak aku tunggu and you know what? I made some friends! the names are Mila and Syah. sambil tunggu kami adala sembang and bruh, there were lots of Indians. as y'all already know, indian ni kan smua bila speaking fluent gila. ahahaha pastu ada la jgak budak ni, sigh (nnt aku check balik nak spell cana), bapak dia sweet gila. selalu check dia dekat pintu nk keluar tu pastu krenyeh2. awww. mat india ni tnya aku, and my new friends; mila and syah, kitaorang punya A. dengan bangganya aku menjawab, lagi 2 nak dekat A.
mat singh tu be like 'deeznutz' ahahaha. more like damn gurl, she's nutz.
*skip part masuk bilik oral*
interviewer: okay, hi, please introduce yourself.
we only told him our names and where we came from.
interviewer: tell me your opinion on early marriage. agree or disagree, and why?
*kami dapat tajuk lain sebenarnya, tapi sebab mcm susah je, kami mintak tukar. and FYI, interviewer tu lelaki tau. aku rasa kalau dapat perempuan nanti mcm cerewet pulak. ahahah k*
aku: disagree.
syah: disagree.
mila: *dengan confident nya* agree!
pastu dia tanya la sebab and kami gitau dia apa smua pstu dia tanya ciri2 bakal suami kitaorang nak yg mcm mna. jwapan kami semua lebih kurang sama kecuali syah sebab dia nak laki dia gaji 5k sebulan hahahha pastu interviewer tu cakap 3k dah cukup dh. ahahaha aku mcm ape2 je.
pastu waktu nak blah dh tu ada ah tanya dia rasa2 kami layak tak, pass tak temuduga ni apa semua. pastu dia ada cakap yg girls are so materialistic. ahahaha pastu mila dengan confidentnya membantah hahahhaa.
ha oklah, panjang sangat ni. ni baru taip, kalau bercakap, setengah jam pon ok je Hahahah. Aku harap sangat kami bertiga dapat but still, I don't want to get my hopes high because my essay writing was so sucks. I cringed, hahaha. Bye X
Labels: upu2016 Wednesday, February 3, 2016 @ 2:43 AM  hi and assalamualaikum, yall! omg, its been so long. dah lama sangat tak blogging. well, newsflash, imma girl, soon to end my teenage life, so i gotta live my life. right meh -..- as u may already know, aku dah ambil percubaan spm, and months after that aku ambil an actual spm examinations. fyi, aku memang akan taip dalam bahasa rojak. i mampulah you all (; what does it means when i said ive finished my spm examinations? I FUCKING FINISHED HIGH SCHOOL MEH!!!!!111!!1 yeah, school was fun except the teachers. we all have that one teacher that us hated, right? well i have one. she was my favorite subject teacher and such a freaking turn off im telling ya. im not gonna say why i hated her because i have my own reasons that needed to be known by me only. lmao really? yeah, really. aku nak cita lah jugak suasana/moment best aku masa dekat skolah tapi nak taip tu tak larat. haha lol yeah. jadi aku nak update sikit lah apa yang aku buat sementara aku tunggu keputusan spm ni. nak tahu aku buat apa? pkul 11:30am aku bangun siap semua pergi kedai makan. kedai makan parents aku. aku bakar ikan. ( sad yet rad. #truestory ) and sometimes aku kutip pinggan, ke ambil orders. tbh, penat HAHAHA baru rsa mcm mna penatnya nak cari duit tu. but thank god, since hujung tahun lepas aku dah start kumpul duit and now i have 800 ringgit something with me. aku ingat nak ah simpan duit acah nk g melancong apa smua, mak aku TAK PAYAH. lol so yeah, duit tu masih ada lagi dan akan ku spend kan untuk kasut and stuffs untuk muka aku. hahahah k bye Tuesday, August 25, 2015 @ 5:12 AM hi yall! ok so dah 3 hari percubaan spm had started untuk semua budak kedah & yes, it's tiring af for me. as a student, also a daughter with full of chores to do, it is hard for me to study ini itu and so on. probably salah aku jugak sebab suka tido petang. ha tak kantoi tak to begin, kedudukan aku ada di baris yang ke dua and guess what? I was stucked between walls (tf) and a freaking annoying yet smart ass guy on earth. did i swore a lot? belakang aku adalah lukman ishak; a fucking mute type in the class and an un-mute ass dalam dewan periksa. depan aku ialah ku wani; one of my laughing partners. nak tahu sebab apa seat aku depan? sebab nama aku maisarah ah duh. kan susunan ikut abjad huruf deng deng deng. tak depan as in depan skli duh what u kno what i wanted to say right itu taklah annoying sangat, yang annoyingnya ialah mat izzat & omar (a weirdo that sits next to ku wani). diaorang meniru. yes, cheating. like bish what ini bukan periksa yang bapak pengetua buat tpi majlis pengetua sekolah malaysia daerah kedah yang buat oh-key. so fuck yes I'm pissed off. aku taktahulah apa yang pengawas (teachers obv) buat. but then again, everybody makes mistake. tapi itulah, tak adil untuk calon yg lain (including me) tak dapat buat apa yang diaorang buat. but what so good about cheating eh? good grades that comes from another person's hard work? arab was on the first day// 23rd August// and :( susah. aku pon tak tahu aku mohong padia dekat tempat jawapan tu tapi harap-haraplah lulus. dah nak setahun sekolah, arab tak pernah nak lulus lagi. aku tak mintak A, lulus je. tahun2 sebelum ni aku lulus ok. nanti cakap seumur hidup lak aku tak pernah lulus arab. hahahaha lawak ka ha Friday, August 14, 2015 @ 1:24 AM uh hi yall. so this is gonna be my first post because the old ones are deleted by me. haha okay that is not funny. im starting over because i wanted a fresh start like here's to teenage memories. k that is 5sos' song but nevermind. ill not update a lot after this but bruh, whatever. as if theres somebody gonna read it. okay, my new upcoming posts will be a lot about what's happening around me. mostly school because i can. im punk rock, i do what i want. duh, scratch that im no punk rock but softie? yes okay no again, softie my ass. so now im watching an indo tele-movie and oh god, it sucks so much. like ferk im not gonna tell it. for your information, your lady (which is me) will take an spm examination by the end of 2015. wish me all the best and if ada masa, kita jumpa lagi. xx |